Teryne

Hurt

2010-04-01T18:28:00.002+08:00

The night seems endlessly long

When i stare at the phone,

Waiting for the screen to spell your name.

My heart bleeds to know that

What used to be so close

Is now so distant.

Moments from the past

Can never be brought back to the present.

I tried to let them fade away,

But the harder i tried, the more vivid they became.

You brought me to heaven

And pushed me down.

I crashed into pathetic little pieces.

Pain lives on and seeps deep

Into the centre of the heart,

Too deep, to be washed away by tears.

My smile and indifference

Masquerades all the heartaches

That are clawing at my maimed heart.

If only you can see

How bruised i am on the inside,

If only you can feel

All the love and hurt in me.

Why am i holding on,

Letting the thorns of love

Cut deeply into me?

Let go, Teryne, let go....

Helpless

2009-06-03T18:32:00.002+08:00

Sitting alone in silence,
Piercing myself in the heart
With tonnes of stupid thoughts.

So many questions
I'm eager to ask,
So many answers
I'm anxious to know.

Why? When? How?
What? Which? Who?

I'm lost.
What am I to do?
I don't want to ruin this fantasy
Yet somehow I still have to wake up.

Nothing is perfect in this world.
Just when you think
You've found an ideal paradise,
It starts to rain.

My eyes are tired,
I'm out of breath.
My eyes dried,
Again I cried.

Trying to think straight
Through all the confusion.
Making up impossible excuses
To console my weary soul.

I'll try my best
To keep my tears in,
As I've promised you
I wouldn't cry anymore.

All I'm doing now
Is waiting.....
Waiting.....
For a sign to let me know
What to do next.

Two Little Eyes

2009-02-14T23:14:00.002+08:00

Two little eyes
Twinkle with admiration from a safe distance.
Two little ears
Try to pick up every word you say.
Two little hands
Waiting to be held.
Two little legs
Willing to go wherever you go.
One tiny heart
Beats wildly in your presence.
One tiny voice
Always unheard.
One small person
Stays unseen.

Seasonal Love

2009-01-22T23:25:00.003+08:00

Spring melted the ice between us,
Created a bond between us.
Love was slowly shaping itself.

Summer was like
Fireworks against a night sky.
Love flourished to a dramatic climax.

Then things weakened during autumn.
Leaves on the Tree of Love
Slowly floated away.

Winter sent everything
Into a deep freeze.
The warmth that was so intense cooled.

Leaving behind pieces of
What's left of our short seasonal love.

Too Late For Regrets

2008-12-26T00:59:00.002+08:00

Learning to cherish only after
The moment has passed.
Starting to treasure only after
The chance has gone.
It's too late to blame myself
For taking the wrong step.
What's the use of calling myself stupid
When it can't change things now.
The notion of regret
Tingles the heart with helplessness.
Suppressed emotions feel like
Bursting out as a scream.
What's the point of regretting
When it's already too late.

Little Girl

2008-12-22T16:01:00.001+08:00

Magic mirror on the wall,
Aren't I the most
Pathetic one of all.

I've been toyed around like a puppet,
Sentiments, the heartless puppeteer,
Directing my actions by the rope;
My thoughts are swirling
Like the inside of a kaleidoscope.

My inability to decide
Is forcing me to face the grim truth
I am trying to deny.

The unfairness of time,
The unjust of love,
Is altering the dreams I had
For my fairy-tale destiny,

I am just a little girl,
How am I to know
What is this I'm feeling,
What I want,
And what is love.

Fading Colours

2008-12-07T23:09:00.001+08:00

Flipping through the colouring book,
The first few pages were
Filled with the colours of spring,
Then they started to turn grey,
Until finally there were no colours at all.
I tried picking up the bright colours again
But it just didn't feel right.
Those brilliant shades
Seemed to have lost their touch.
Every stroke of forced colour
Covers the picture in wretched streaks.
This is not what I wanted.
I never meant to mar
These delicate impressions
With my destructive colouring.

Over It

2008-11-19T18:10:00.001+08:00

You told me to wait,
But you never came back.
You left me here
Crying on my own.

The tears that came and dried
Slowly eroded my feelings for you.
Pain that lived inside of me
Chipped away my love bit by bit.

I had reasons that convinced me to stay.
But right here, right now
Those strong feelings I had
Are vanishing one by one.

I thought I could,
But reality says I can't.
I thought I could keep on waiting,
But it's apparent that you're unworthy.

I'm better off opening myself
To a new world and new things.
A new world where I can find happiness,
A new world without you.

Teryne

2008-10-26T21:48:00.001+08:00

She made her way into the world,
30 November in 1991.
3.15 in the noon.

That cranky little baby
Shaped out to be an undeniably
Lazy girl scolded times over.
Born to be stubborn,
She has no intention of changing it.

She laughs through her day,
Cries her miseries away,
Snaps at those who infuriates her.
She's just like many other girls out there.

She thanks you for calling her weird,
Doesn't seem to care she's imperfect,
Can laugh at nothing in specific.
She's not your average girl next door.

Snow White was fortunate
To have 7 little true companions.
This girl is lucky enough
To have 4 dwarves of her own.

They make up part of her
Like jigsaw pieces to a picture.
Call her selfish,
But she's keeping them to herself.

Whether she'll find the 'true one'
She can't be certain.
He could be near and he could be far.
All she can do is search with her heart.

Now only a quarter through life,
She still has a long way to go.
She's now reaching the biggest crossroad to
Decide her profession for life.

One can never be sure
Where her road might abruptly end.
Nevertheless, she will keep moving on
Simply hoping she was once appreciated.

Substitute

2008-10-18T11:54:00.001+08:00

Feeling like a replaced
Lead for the stage.
One that stands hidden in shadows.
Suffering a severe
Internal haemorrhage
From the stab of a knife.
Yearn for an answer yet
Afraid to agitate
What might be a disguised reality.
Silently crying from pain
Not knowing
Who stabbed me.

Certain Yet Uncertain

2008-10-13T19:00:00.000+08:00

Where there is light,
There are shadows.
Where there is sound,
There are echoes.

If there is music,
There will be rhythm.
If there is joy,
There will be laughter.

Yet some questions
Do not have answers.
Once-upon-a-time
May not end happily-ever-after.

Chocolates aren't always sweet,
Instinct isn't always right,
Love doesn't always bring about smiles,
Love isn't always eternal.

Everything has to end.
Every love story has to conclude.
The probability of a happy ending,
The probability of a tragic ending
Are fifty - fifty each.

In life, are certainties and possibilities.
I have certainly had heartbreaks
And there is a possibility they will happen again.

Silence

2008-10-12T21:37:00.002+08:00

The silence you showered upon me
Aroused fears,
Developed tears.

Pure silence if far more savage
Than world-shattering words.
Being left in a state of doubt,
Every passing second is agony.

The emptiness of cruel silence
Tortures the soul.
The infinity of long silence,
Wearies the heart.

I'd rather be hit by heartbreaking words
Than listening to the quietness of intense silence,
Wondering what
You're not saying,
Wondering why
You're not speaking.

Give It Time

2008-10-05T15:04:00.001+08:00

Lost without guidance,
We don't know where to go from here.
We should just let time decide
What happens next.
Give this uncertain seed some time
To adapt,
To grow,
To bloom.
At its fragile state,
It's best we don't rush things
For the fear of ruining it.
Let time give it the chance
To learn,
Feel,
And accept
Its surroundings.
Someday when it is ready,
It will slowly
Sprout,
Bud,
And eventually flower.
But how long will this waiting game last?
Until the next sunrise
Or till the end of time?
The conclusion will only surface,
The flower will only find its glory,
When both hearts finally meet.

Ashes

2008-09-28T20:11:00.002+08:00

Time has passed,
Stars have moved.
I'm picking up the ashes
Of what was once a flaming love.

Sparks flew when the inferno raged,
Embers glowed when the fire receded,
Smoke were last seen escaping
The extinguished flame.

Coal remains show signs of
Sears and scars.
Everything once beautiful
Is now dead.

Shadow

2008-09-23T18:31:00.002+08:00

How can i say what's wrong and what's not
If i am just a shadow crawling through the scenes of life.
How can i expect my words to be heard
If my echoes are all but loud.
How can i expect others to perceive what i see
If i am less than what an illusion should be.
How can i comment on matters and things,
If i myself exist near to nothing at all.
How can i say what's right and what's not
If i am just a shadow trying to be seen.

Heart of Five

2008-09-22T14:19:00.005+08:00

Dedicated to Eunice, Karson, Euodia and Kerry:

When I was born,
I was given a trinket
With four special stones;
The ruby, peridot, opal and topaz
Each glows uniquely.

The golden chains are strong,
Nothing can break it apart;
I wear it tight
And I wear it proud.

This isn't just a relationship,
Nor is it plain friendship,
It's an exquisite cousinship.

A relationship is fate,
A special bond is destiny;
Money may buy you friends
But it insures no loyalty.

Distance isn't that strong a wall
That can keep us apart.
Though out spreads the wide sea,
Cousinship keeps us bridged.

Many sees me on the outside
Yet knows nothing about the Me inside.
Too many words doesn't need to be said
To bring my thoughts to you.

Yesterday we watched
Each other grow tall,
And tomorrow we shall witness it
As we grow old.

As long as there is love alive,
Nothing can break
The Heart of Five.

Happy Cousins' Day~!

Always yours,
Teryne

Lost

2008-09-16T17:52:00.001+08:00

Lost among thoughts.
Lost within emotions.
Distressed by the milling crowd.
Confusion slowly devours
The hands and feet of rationality.
Which senses are seeing?
Which senses are blind?
Am I to trust the heart
Or to trust the mind?

Life is a Dream

2008-09-11T17:11:00.001+08:00

Life, is a dream,
A mirage as the eye sees,
So rich, yet so empty,
Shall we awake, and all is gone.
What is left, a long forgotten memory,
Fading into eternity.

Sorry

2008-08-28T17:41:00.000+08:00

Sorry.
Maybe not even a million 'Sorry's
Can achieve your forgiveness.

I said words without looking
Into the mirror in my mind.
Now reflected back is an image
I'm regretting to have caused.

I've apologised and silently praying
That things would not aggravate.
What happens next,
Depends on your answers.

Immunity

2008-08-22T18:04:00.002+08:00

Tears
Are a sign of vulnerability.
Strength
Shows in the eyes of those
Who smile their way through grief.

What is meant to happen
Cannot be changed.
What has happened
We can only endure meekly.
All that is in our hands,
Is the power to decide
Between joy and misery.

What would the genie tell me?
I don't know.
What does the crystal ball forsee?
I don't know.
Uncertainties and anxiety,
Usually unseparated twins,
Creep into the minds of the paranoid.

So many times I have cried.
Will I ever start to learn?
Yes, yes.
I am learning.
Learning to accept and let go.

To accept critique and let it go.
To let myself comprehend
Dark spells are only uttered words
Meant to cripple the vulnerable.

Sometimes the sky darkens,
Rain starts to fall.
Everything turns sombre.
If you would just embrace it
And find comfort in the gloominess,
It would be no different
From a fine day.

With a mere dim smile,
I have taught myself
To be immune.

Follow Your Heart

2008-08-16T18:11:00.002+08:00

Rules.
What are they?
Restrictions, barriers conveyed as words.

Guided by limitations,
You can only go that far.
So unlock those chains,
Burst out of your cage.

Try taking a crazy chance;
Do what your heart tells you
Instead of what you are told.

Give rise to miracles,
And tell everyone that
One plus one can equal to three.

Let your passion shine through.
Let music turn you into the next Mozart.
Let art transform you into the new Picasso.
Let literature make a Shakespeare out of you.

Reach out for your star,
Go beyond the barricades of the Earth
And into the depth of the universe.

Every success starts as a foggy vision
Then slowly clears into a bright destiny.
Simply remember,
Triumph is there for those who never give up.

Take a Wild Guess

2008-08-11T17:48:00.001+08:00

haha...my cousin and i made this a few months back...

Sweet, yummy, yellow

Seedless, soft and mellow

I bite it and taste Heaven

i can eat n eat until i've eaten seven

but then i'll be really full but i don't care

step on it if u really dare

to be nice, i'll just share

u can blend it, bake it and fry it

u can even put it in a kit

try it with ice cream and a cherry on top..

after that you can shop till u drop

if u are high and crazy now, u r definitely it

so IT that you can't SIT!

juiceless, our friend is dry..

that's why you can fry

it doesnt hav wings..thats y it cant fly

careful, if you lose it u'll cry

so y not giv it a try?

oh my

our friend is a sucker for yellow jackets

but keep it away from badminton rackets

or u'll hav it squished, mashed and smashed

and then you'll have to get it trashed

having hidden in its jacket all the time...it is fairer than u and me..

it is far greater than what you can see

i know u'll love it more than ur dolly

and then you two will be very jolly

so take a wild guess..

to find out who our friend is~

Answer : Banana =P

Sunset

2008-08-04T18:12:00.004+08:00

I see the amber sky,
I see the far-off silhouttes.
It's sunset again.

How magnificent is the sun
That is spreading its rays
Across the sea, over the hills,
Onto the plains and into my heart.

Every day at dusk,
We watch the sun set together.
Every twilight in my life,
I spend it with you.

Many whispers were exchanged
Before the vanishing sun.
Countless laughter were shared
Under the darkening sky.

The sunset is something we share.

If someday we are apart,
All I'm asking is that
You would remember me at sunset.

If One Day

2008-07-28T19:34:00.001+08:00

If one day the rose turns black,
I would not wish but yearn
For you to come back.

If one day the world proves to me
That you are a fraud,
I would find ways to tell me
That you are not.

If one day you hurt me deep,
I would simply put the pain to sleep.

If one day you lie to me,
I would know that you have a reason
Somewhere I cannot see.

If one day our faith runs low,
I would trust in you
To make it grow.

If one day my laughters turn to tears,
I would wait for you to come with cheers.

If one day you don't love me anymore,
I would be thinking of you even more.

If one day you leave me all alone,
I would be waiting by the phone.

If one day the world comes to an end,
I would hold on to our memories
As much as I can.

If one day the rose turns black,
I would still be waiting
For you to come back.

Free

2008-07-25T21:46:00.002+08:00

Caught between the fatigue of infinite waiting
And the fear of rejection,
The only thing to do, is to let go.
Having let go of it, I feel a hundred times lighter.
I can finally walk past him without my mask,
I can finally let that dark secret evaporate into thin air,
I am finally free.

It's Not Over

2008-07-25T17:38:00.002+08:00

After the long winter days,
The colours of spring flowers
Seemed to have faded from my mind.

But when spring finally came
The lost colours came before my eyes once more.
The smile I had missed so long
Brings back emotions from the heart's core.

Though my mind had chosen to forget you,
Somewhere in my heart is still a mark you left behind.
I lied to me,
When I tried to make myself blind.

My question was answered
When you passed me by
And something in me moved
Like birds set to fly.

Maybe the scar is too deep to recover,
Maybe I had never let go
Maybe I'm still waiting for you.

You

2008-07-25T14:48:00.000+08:00

It surprises me
That when I close my eyes,
There is a new face
Emerging from within.

He doesn't come into my dreams anymore,
His laughter doesn't shine as it was,
His voice no longer attracts me;
Becoming only part of my history.

I am starting embed
Your name into my mind,
An imprint that is
Changing what my eyes see now.

I've seen you smile,
I've heard you talk.
Every gesture charms me,
Every word touches me.

Like sunshine in the rain,
You are bright and warm.
Like stars in the evening,
You are slowly shining through.

Dumped

2008-07-24T16:17:00.001+08:00

I don't know what I'm seeing,
I don't know what I'm feeling,
Everyday you're just saying
You don't have time for me.

Every time I look at us,
It's like looking at a dying flame,
A wilting blossom,
A drying well.

She used to be my friend,
Until she took you away.
Why? Why let me walk on alone?
Why give up on me?

Why are you just staring at me now?
Why aren't you saying a word?
Why, I'm asking,
Did you break my heart?

Without your answers,
I guess love is just an equation
I can never solve.

Hiding

2008-07-22T15:22:00.000+08:00

I'm hiding.
Hiding from unwanted
Voices and noises.

The whole world is saying
Things I don't want to hear.
One after one,
They're getting harder and harder to bear.

Don't try to say
Everything is okay
Because I know nothing is.

Each time I look up
Only to see pointing fingers
And teasing smirks,
The past becomes vivid in mind.

I want to hide
From this harsh harsh reality.
This is the dark corner
Where I shall belong for eternity...

Winter Lovers

2008-07-21T20:25:00.003+08:00

The blanket of shattered crystals,
Glistened in pale gold;
Two Romeo and Juliets,
Hurried through the snow.

The air was silent,
As snow descended tenderly;
He held her tight,
The glass floor was slippery.

She signalled to stop,
Sat and gasped;
Through the snow,
A little squirrel hopped.

Despite the icy cold,
She was warm inside,
For her beloved
Was by her side.

They stood up and continued
Their journey to flee,
At the time of dusk,
They would be free.

With his hand in hers,
And hers in his,
They scurried across the land,
Pursuing the love life they wish.

Crossroads

2008-07-21T20:16:00.002+08:00

this is supposed to be a draft..but i dont feel like editing/polishing it any further..

Standing at the crossroads,
I'm deciding which road to take.

If I turned back,
Can my feeble heart survive another blow?
Will you keep your words?
Can we go back to how we used to be?

If I moved on,
Will I be able to find this feeling again?
Can I live on without you?
Will all my nights be without tears?

To forgive and forget is not easy;
But how would leaving you be simple?

I'm pacing back and forth,
Going around in circles,
Standing and lingering.

Finally having made up my mind,
I turned back...

Not sure whats the name for this

2008-07-21T19:39:00.003+08:00

this isnt my poem but i posted it coz i think its good..

When people feel unhappy,

The feeling tend to stay there quite long.

But when I start being unhappy,

I just need to remember

That God loves me so, so much

And I love Him too.

He sent His son for me

To die on that Cross.

He carried the very, very heavy tree

With the weight of our sins.

He suffered so, so much

Having people mock Him, make fun of Him and joke about Him.

But all He said was “Forgive them!”

He died when it was time

But rose from the dead on the third day

To show that it was the beginning

Of the righteousness.

God, You love me so much

How can some people not know that?

You gave us so, so much!

Just imagine losing your one and only child.

Letting him suffer so badly

Just so you can save other people.

Father I thank You so, so much

For loving me more than everything.

I will give You my all

Please accept it and come into my heart.

Poet: my cousin, eunice

...stop taking vain pics with my phone =.=

Dreams

2008-07-21T18:22:00.001+08:00

A dream is a wish you hope to happen
That at times seems so far away.
Try to believe, keep on dreaming
And it may come true someday.

If you hear people saying
Dreams are only far off fantasies,
You can see that they don't know
Dreams are the root of successes.

When you have a dream,
There will be a light of direction
Walking you through life
Giving that reason to strive.

Even if it doesn't happen,
There would still be something
You had achieved along the way
That is here to stay.

If you have the heart to dream
You've given sparks a chance
To burst into fireworks.

What Have We Done

2008-07-20T18:04:00.000+08:00

What have we done?
Throughout the years,
What have we done?

We've devastated our lands,
Poisoned the seven seas,
Obliterated countless animal friends.

Humans call themselves the supreme of all beasts,
But just how smart are they?

Smart enough to waste money on cigarettes
Harming themselves, the environment and others.
Brilliant in killing animals and selling parts of them.
Genius in dumping wastes into the sea
Without having to deal with them themselves.

Trees are cut everyday,
Animals are hunted everyday.
If murder is crime,
Why aren't they apprehended?

Every moment, the polar caps are melting away.
Take pity on the polar bears, the seals
And stop global warming.

The lives of blue whales are at stake,
Yet whaling is still going on somewhere out there.
What is so great about tasting turtle eggs?
The pleasure of endangering the whole species?

One day when humans are forced to face
The hushed forests and dead oceans,
They will start to realize and regret.
Alas, it would be too late.

The once magnificent Blue Planet
Is nearing the end of its glory.
It's time to set things right
Before our humble home turns hostile.

A Girl's Prayer

2008-07-18T19:10:00.001+08:00

A girl cries out to Heaven,
A message for Cupid,
Of dire desperation,
Help this girl helpless and stupid.

Grant her the courage she needs,
Bestow upon her the confidence she lacks
To express herself when they meet
And stop herself from holding back.

Surrounded by her cynical thoughts,
She needs light to see hope;
This girl is fearing humiliation,
Embarassment, rejection.

Let her will be strong
Strong enough to love,
To tell herself she's not wrong;
And that her problems could be solved.

Let my doubts be ensured,
My fears be gone,
My love be shown,
My future not being alone.

Cupid,
Hear me out, and thus
Help me to ensure
That I, too, can own happiness.

Why

2008-07-18T16:54:00.001+08:00

I've told myself over and over
Not to think
Not to care any more.
But why do I still look at him
With so many feelings?

I have to learn to let go,
I need to wake up,
I want to stop thinking..
But why can't I do it?

Why am I asking myself questions?
Why am I still seeing hope?
Why am I having doubts?
Why do I feel the need to forgive?

A Heartbeat Too Late

2008-07-18T16:43:00.000+08:00

I never saw it as a chance,
I wasn't aware of what was there;
You were there all that time,
But I just didn't feel of you that way.

You've heard me say 'No'
Too many times.
I've lost you,
When I turned away.

You could have held on longer,
But time had worn you out.
I'm reaching out my hand now
Only to grab hold of air.

When your smile has become an illusion,
And your voice muffled through the distance,
I can only painfully say:
My heart moved a heartbeat too late.

Time To Let Go

2008-07-17T17:03:00.004+08:00

It doesn't matter how red the roses were,
How bright our laughters were;
Everything between us has faded
And that's for sure.

Maybe I should have walked out the door
And let go
When the light between us
Dimmed, to a glow.

Instead of holding on to this day
Until tear drops are now no more,
Promises have become past whispers,
Lies are no longer new words.

It's time we stop holding on
To something too fragile to survive
That's upsetting both of us
And creating problems that cannot be untangled.

This is the last time
I'll see my reflection in your eyes,
This is the last time
I'll watch your figure dissolve into the distance.

But when our footsteps
Sent us into different directions,
I realized that,
I didn't want you to go...

Heartbroken

2008-07-17T16:58:00.002+08:00

As hard as I tried,
I couldn't stop myself,
Stop myself from looking back
At the days and laughter of our past.

You said you will never leave me,
But now you are gone.
What have I done wrong
That made you desert me?

There is so much
That I have not said,
So many I'm still
Waiting to happen.

I can reshape what I am
Into what you need.
I can give anything
To restore everything we once had.

But if keeping you back
Would rob you of your smile,
Then go, my dear,
Go set yourself free.